I can tend to be a perfectionist. Make lists and try to plan things out, but I am getting better. I now try to live in the moment, to take each situation as it comes and embrace the changes that will arise. The same can be said for my personal devotion time with the Lord.
I remember when I used to beat myself up if I didn’t get in early morning devotions at the crack of dawn ahead of my family. I somehow thought that I was more spiritual if I did that. I would read about the Proverbs 31 woman and envy her for her early waking hours and her productivity. I would try and fail, and feel bad instead of finding what worked for me.
I had to remind myself that God is looking for the heart of a servant and a willing vessel. He is not looking for perfection in us, but for a yielding and pliable heart.
In my home, my husband is a very early riser, he gets up at 5:00 Am ( or earlier), so it is really hard for me to ever get up ahead of him, not to mention that I think I am allergic to that time of day and it doesn’t agree with me very well. But I am trying!
Finding Jesus Instead Of Perfectionism
I gave up the ideal scenario that I thought I had to do or be as I read about the Proverbs 31 woman. Instead I have learned to take in Jesus whenever and wherever I can. In doing so I gave up the legalism and in turn found a communion and abiding that I wouldn’t have otherwise. I find that in the resting and relaxing to find Jesus in every moment, I have a richer and deeper walk with the Lord.
Now don’t get me wrong I know what the Bible says, and it gives many mentions of seeking God in the morning, but I do think that there are exceptions and that no time is the right time to praise the Lord! I am all for starting my day off in the right way, in prayer and meditating on the Word, but I also have found that sometimes life brings surprises. A child is up in the night, or they get up really early and mess up that planned time you wanted to have in deep Bible study. Things can happen, but God is still God.
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. Romans 8:1-2
So what how did I change my ways?
Finding Freedom In God Moments
I began to take in each moment and grab minutes where I could with the Lord. Now when I wake in the morning, before my feet hit the floor, I start my conversation with God for the day, I greet him and ask for direction. praying over my family, and committing the day to him. This sets the course and the conversation to get my heart prepared for whatever the day may bring.
After I am up and the blur has cleared form my eyes, I try to spend time reading my Bible. Some days I have more time than others–sometimes it doesn’t happen till noon. I like to leave my Bible handy, where I can grab it through the day, this way when I have a free minute I can pick it up and get scripture in when I am able. There are times when a longer in-depth Bible Study works for me, but I have learned it is rarely in the morning. In fact evening can sometimes be the best time for me to talk with God and hear from him when I am not being pulled in a lot of directions.
I will pray while I clean house, and wash dishes. I like to have conversations with God as I fold laundry, or make my bed. Sound crazy? Well it is what works for me, and the Lord and I have some good talks during those times. By finding simple God moments as I go about my day, I am free from the striving for something I thought should be perfect and the “right” way to a daily and moment-by-moment abiding in Christ.
Now that is divine!
What about you? How do find time with the Lord in the midst of the busy?